Lately in work we had busy time and everybody was push
everybody to finish our work , and I had to do many things in the same time , I
felt depressed , like I hate this life and hate work and hate everything , I felt like I don’t want live
any more , Astaghfaruallah , it was so bad feeling , I hope that no one in the earth feel like that.
I
know sometimes we feel like this earth is so small for us , and some of you
feel like what I wrote up there , its times we all might experienced
in this life , but now I know what you all asking , how I passed this bad time
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When I felt like that, I just decided that I will quit my job and that was final,
we have a small mosque in our company to pray in it, I just
went to it and sit there just to breath, the man who make the Azan in the mosque smiled to me and just say ( azokr
Rebekah ) means remind your god , then I just stand
and pray 2 rakas.
What happens after I finish the two rakas, it was like magic, yeah Subhan Allah , I was so
different person than the one before I pray , I felt like I have so clear mind,
and so peaceful heart , I felt like I was resting for all week and I need to
work , I need to do something .
When I back to my home I told that to the shaick (religious man) of our main mosque, the man
smiled and say
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"Those who believe, and whose hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of Allah. For without doubt in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find satisfaction?28 Ar-Ra'd
الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوبُهُمْ بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ ۗ أَلَا بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ
After I heard him read this verse from the Quran , I felt how much I am blessed to be
Muslim , how much I am blessed to have Allah , just to remind him my problems go away .
So I know that what I felt before was from the shitan devil and I decide that I
so weak to fight the devil with my own I will fight this devil with my Allah
Quran and I will fight him with the remind of Allah always .
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And I created something for
myself , every day I spend about one hour in the transport while I am gone and backing for work , so I make a list of duas and azkar ( small duas ) to say while I am on the bus or the car.
Dear brothers and sisters always remind your Allah in every single moment in your life I learned the lesson when I face a problem but you should start right now with any problems always remind your Allah and read Allah Quran , and follow our prophet Mohamed Sunnah as you could , may Allah guide all of us and give us peace Amen.